Choices In Life

There was once that I have to choose,
either gain or lose...
I cant have everything and take chances
and feel the pain...
And not to love in vain
cause love wont set me free...
I can't just stand around
and watch this life pass me by...

Even if it hurts me...
Even if it make me cry...
Even if I am alone...
I have to find 'myself' through this roughness...

Don't care about all the pain that I felt
cause I just want to be happy...
I am just holding on tightly to my faith and believes,
and won't let it go...

Lots Of Love

Tinggal Kenagan

Pernah ada rasa cinta antara kita,

kini tinggal kenangan...

Inginku lupakan semua tentang dirimu,

namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu... Oh bintangku...

Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku,

disini aku merindukan dirimu

Kini ku cuba mencari penggantimu

Namun tak lagi seperti dirimu... Oh kekasih...

Lots Of Love

Lonely

Loneliness, means "feeling lonely," describes a human state or feeling involving isolation, or the feeling of disconnection with others, etc. Often accompanied by a sense of yearning for connection. Usually through hopes of romantic companion, in the arms of another.

I used to have him near, I used to have him close by, I used to have him by my side but now he is gone..., gone with the wind...

Alone... Why must I be alone, Alone... Why must I dream alone, Apart... Why must we be apart,
Alone... Why must I be alone...

Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it is true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.

Lots Of Love

Made In Heaven...

Faizal,
I love you so much
I love you with all of my heart
I will never get over the feeling that I have so strongly for you
I just keep thinking about how if I would ever lose you
How I would spend the rest of my life trying to get you back
And thinking about how my life will never be complete without you in it

Faizal,
You are my world
You are my strength
You are the reason that I never give up in life
You are the reason that I want to live
You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me
I just keep thinking of the mistakes that I have made in our relationship
And how I would go back to take them all away
I know that we will have our little fights and arguments
Every argument that we have kills me inside
But all that I can think of is
In the end will we remain together?
And I know that you will be there for me when I need you the most
You sit there and wonder if I don't love you
But you got it all wrong
I love you more and more each day
I love you more and more with every breath that I take
And with every smile that I make
Everyday I think of how I want to spend the rest of my life with you
I sit here everyday just waiting to hear your voice and waiting to hear your laugh
I know that you have been hurt before
But there is nothing that I can do about that
Just because of that I just want you to know that I don't love you any less

Faizal,
I just want you to know that I love you and will forever more
No matter what people say, it won't change the way how i feel about you...

I love you, I miss you always... my hubby Faizal Razali...

Lots Of Love

Recovery Lane...

Hi...all!! Thank you for all your care and concern. I am recovering well since I have been resting and taking my medicine regularly. Hubby have been showering me comfort and concern, it makes me want to get well faster, thank you hubby for the endless care and concern. I am feeling slightly better, cramps and abdominal pains come and go, I just need to have proper meal and drink plenty of water so I wont get gastric.

Today was my first day back at work, I feel very weak and  lethargic. Since I am still unwell and recovering, I requested to be deployed in the office. My day was fine and everything went smoothly for me.

Even now, while I am updating about myself, I kinda felt my forehead is warm. Being sick makes me feel very weak. Well, hopefully, I will get well soon and will be able to go out for some fresh air again.

Monday Blues'...

I was unwell today, I have been having stomach cramps and sharp pain at the abdominal area since yesterday night, so I visit the doctor and have a check up. I was having stomach flu also known as gastroenteritis (gastric) and was prescribed with polysilic lll susp (white mixture) for gastric, ultracarbon (black tablets) for stomach wind and loperamide (loperamil) (blue tablets) for diarrhoea. I was given a day off to rest and get well.

I have been resting well and I am feeling slightly better, had my medicine at interval time of the day. Well, I am heading to slumber land now after taking my supper and medicine.

Betrayal

I read an article and would like to share my point of views...

Is it hurt, disappointment, anger, loss of trust, humiliated, neglected, loss of self-esteem? Betrayal has a way of stealing your smiles and laughter. It has a way of turning your love into pure hate. People nowadays show less care and concern in regards to their partner’s feelings. They say they care, but their actions and reactions tend to show otherwise.

Some people are 'quiet betrayal'. They know exactly how to turn a situation to benefit them, making you fall and feel like you are in the wrong. Many relationships are controlled by either side having this ability. Relationships can be manipulated, the one that always get bullied is the naive ones. Most of the time, many are not aware that they are victims to a betrayal.

In a relationship, betrayals are one of the reason to failure because we put ourselves in an unstable commitment through our trust and love for the other person. We must communicate more openly so that we have an equal understanding of what the other believes and feels about certain issues. We must both come to agreements on what is acceptable for us, don’t try to change the things that cannot be changed, but do change what you can. Situations can be made or avoided in a relationship.

Love your partner like you will never love another, to give love is to receive love.

"I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.”
- Angeleaknewin -

Weekend Wrapped-up...

Let me wrap up for the weekend...

Last Friday, Hubby with his brother and nephew went fishing again over at Pasir Ris Pond. After work, I will drop by to see them fishing. Its a rainy day, heavy red sky lured above us. Hubby was at his usual fishing spot. On to the left, was a group of  malay uncles and to our right was empty till one 'botak' malay guy came along and took the spot. It didn't took long for the 'botak' guy to settle down and threw his line out, when he caught his very first fish. You can imagine the reaction we all had, he just came, threw his line out, 'played' awhile with his line and within seconds caught his first fish. Guess, it was his luck. We waited and waited till it was time for me to make a move. That was when hubby's rod came bending forward as if something was pulling it down hard, hubby quickly sprung into action, grab his rod and rear the line in, I was hoping that the fish get tangle with the line. Then we saw the fish splashing on the water surface. Hubby caught his first fish for the day, just in time before I make a move. In a joking manner, I told hubby the fish must have known that I am making my move so it bite on his line.

Yesterday was my off day, I went out with my family to have dinner at Simei banquet. After dinner, we head down to Mustafa Center, it was crowded and it took us awhile to get an empty parking lot. Since it was so crowded, my dad didn't follow us in the mall so he waited for us outside. After paying of our things, we head out to met my dad. We sat down at this small stall under the same roof, we went to order our drinks. Here is the funny part I am sharing, we went to order our drinks, my dad drinks tea 'o'. Over the counter, we are served by mainland Indians, we asked for tea 'o' and they gave a blank face and gave me tea instead. I corrected them and asked for tea without milk. Then the supervisor came out and told us off, English called tea 'BLACK TEA'. I was confused and dumbfounded, whether to laugh or not, never have I heard of 'black tea'. I told them off maybe since they make the tea so they call it 'black tea' because they are black. They cant even compare the color black and reddish maybe they are color-blind. We laugh and make jokes out of it through the whole journey back home. Here is a picture of the 'black tea'.

Heartbreak

For a long time I had not known what heartbreak had felt to an untouched heart, to have your heart broken would take no more then a second., an action, a thought, a feeling. A second is all it could take. But there is another way to have your heart broken. Not through an action, a though or a feeling. But just by being there, in a physical form. But not with the soul, the emotion. The thing you really love about them. The thing your losing from then. But it is not that there dying inside. It is the smile they used to give you, is no longer given to you. The look they give you the feeling of love and compassion, now becomes stare of boredom and regret. The thing that kills you inside every time you look at them with all the love in your heart and which they shrug off in the most painful way.

Our Compatiblity

Source : dailyhoroscope.com


Sagittarius is open, honest, blunt and frank. Cancer may react to all the action oriented energy of Sagittarius in such a manner that they become hurt easily, or take things much too personal. Sagittarius, on the other hand, deals with issues in stride, using an optimistic, nonchalant humorous approach. Basic misunderstandings can occur frequently.

No matter what dilemma may occur, Sagittarius finds the humor in it, making the best of any situation. If the roof caves in, Sagittarius says, “Well, we needed a new ceiling anyway”! Cancer may utter a few whimpering sniffles while drying their eyes, feeling so bad that now some poor soul has to clean up the mess. Two total different reactions may at times make it difficult for them to understand each other.

Romantically speaking, Sagittarius needs grounding from time to time. They delight in learning anything, from foreign cultures to different languages, and require a variety in being accessible to freely pursue this quest. They often become involved in long-distant relationships at one point in their lives. They may meet a special significant other surrounding affairs pursued while either learning or traveling. The distance between that special someone allows for freedom to pursue knowledge. This is why they do not like to be tied down. Cancer will appreciate Sagittarius’ honest qualities and great sense of humor, and this will warm their already emotional heart. On the other hand, if Sagittarius is gone more than they stay at home, this may end up leaving the Cancer feeling blue or left “Home Alone” too often.

Sagittarius loves the outdoors and Cancer may love to tinker in the garden. Just remember that you may not respond to issues in the same manner for your views do differ quite a bit. The best advice for this combination may be to follow these simple rules. Give Sagittarius a night out. Take up a class or spend some time getting outdoors in the great sunshine together. Ask your Cancer mate to go swimming with you, do some gardening together, and take long romantic strolls in the park. Do things together that you both have in common and Sagittarius’ intelligent philosophy will surely keep Cancer’s loving heart aglow.


CANCER: Emotional, Nurturing, Sensitive
SAGITTARIUS: Truthful, Blunt, Humorous, Restless

Bumble Bee Boy

Here is a picture of my cute, chubby nephew Hasif Aarman, 7 months old. I bought him this bumble bee jumper because i find it cute and as all can see isn't he adorable in the outfit. I bought the jumper at downtown east, ehub when I was out playing bowling the other day.

He looked so adorable in that outfit with the 'wings' and 'antenna'. There was also other designs such as a ladybird, tiger and cow but I fancy this design the most. Just see how cute he is, chubby cheeks, feels like biting his cheeks.

A pervert at my workplace

For some reason I am sharing this experience with all.

There is an old uncle working in my team, he is a temporary staff which he is only needed when we are short of manpower. I used to label him as 'pervert' because he have that look and he will really stared right through you which makes you feel naked. Sometimes when we are communicating to one another, he will come close up to you at times you can feel as if his breathe on your cheeks before he able to do so, i will sprung to action and keep a distance away from him. I am not sure if I am being over-reacted till my other colleague talked about it. I have bring the matter up to my superior and they are looking into it.

The recent issue was, it happened when i was deployed together with him and with another person, my other partner was on meal break so leave me and him in the office. I was just sitting around, waiting for the last departure for my shift, there was other people around then and he was doing something with his hand phone. Suddenly, I heard something like moaning voice, I try to ignore but the sound kept playing that was the final straw for me and I get out of that place to a safer one. Guess what, that old man was viewing pornographic video on his hand phone. He is really one pathetic, sick, pervert old man....!!!

It makes me sick and disgusted. I thought I am the only one to experience that, there was also another colleague of mine facing the same problem. What was he thinking or trying to do that time. Nowadays, I keep my distance away from that old pervert uncle and making sure that the place that I work has people around and also have extra staff working with me. If this problem happens again, I wont hesitate to report this matter to the police because this is an intrusion of my privacy and harressment.

Work or Play

Its been a busy weekend for me, on Saturday morning the crowd over at my work place is swamped with crowds, some are going away for a holiday while some are going away to play golf. Each Saturday morning. the crowd will double up twice sometimes thrice and on Sunday when everyone returned back to Singapore.

I was deployed at baggage pier where I am in-charged of making sure that all the baggage that arrived and depart are in good condition as well as are safely load and unload by the porters, also ensuring that all the passengers received their baggage. There is 4 staffs deployed at jetty on weekends usually its 3 staffs on weekdays, 2 will be handling the crowd and ensuring that all departure passengers and ferries are on scheduled while I have a partner to help me around with my duties.

One of my colleagues is a senior citizen so definitely he is not up to pace so I pity him for he has to run around the jetty doing all the work while his partner is so busy playing game in the pier office, playing his PSP. We are busy working, running the pace up ensuring everything is in proper, he is enjoying himself to relaxation. When it comes to work, I am very particular, I divide my time between working and happy hour. But that person took advantage of the time and to have more staff working that period with his unreasonable attitude.

Its very frustrating and annoyed having to experience this problem. Furthermore, while his enjoying his time playing game, we will have to cover his duties and when comes the end of the month, we all have the same paid salary but the different is he is working less. So I and my colleague informed our superior about his attitude. Before this, that person was caught downloading softwares and games using the company computer and he was given a verbal  and stern warning, still he didn't change though he is given chances. While others are worry about losing their jobs, he in the other hand care less about securing his work. I wonder if he ever care about himself, not to say about his work. Its hard to find work nowadays, securing the future, even though you have dozens of certificates that doesn't promise you a brighter future or work. We should be thankful and appreciate of the things we have and owned before we loose it.

I hope he will come to his senses someday before its too late to change and mend his ways, not for other people but for himself and his future. Let this be a lesson to learn and something that we can take note of.

The 10.1” Aspire One

Style

One look

The 10.1” Aspire One is ultra-thin and pearl white color outer cover with black keypad.


Feeling

One freedom

The 10.1” Aspire One uses WiFi and Bluetooth.


Vision

One idea

The new 10.1” Aspire One weigths 1.33 kg (2.95 lbs) yet packs a stunning, 10.1” WSVGA CrystalBrite LED backlit LCD with 1024x600 resolution and integrated CrystalEye™ webcam supporting 0.3 megapixel resolution and comes installed with Windows 7 Starter.


Experience

One control

Having your world on the go. With Windows 7 Starter installed, the 10.1” Aspire One is designed to keep you entertained and connected all the time.


Power

One energy
 The 10.1” Aspire One is powered by the Intel® Atom™ processor N280 (1.66 GHz, 667 MHz FSB. The 10.1” Aspire One has 57.7 W 5200 mAh 6-cell Li-ion battery pack, 7-hour battery life.

Bowling Game

As usually its been a long, tiring week working my a** out.. And also its been awhile, for me and my colleagues, play bowling over at downtown east, Ehub. We used to play once a week on every morning shift. I guess the last game that we had was a few months back. The usual suspects are myself, Kak Jai, Gadafi, Zul, Khai. We will usually play 2 sets of game. After the game, we will walk over to my 24 hours coffee shop, to have our dinner and from there we all make our way back home.

Just two days ago, I and my fellow colleagues went to play bowling to distress ourselves from work since we have been very busy as the holidays is here. Abg Kassim and Shima even joined us for the game. After the game, we slowly to Pasir Ris Dr 6 to have our dinner, I didn't joined them as I was tired so I just ordered my food and have it packed. I bought myself nasi ayam and ice kacang.

I took some pictures of us while bowling to share with all.

A story to share..

Hi, people! I have a story to share with all, do keep on reading. As everyone know its almost end of the year, everyone favourite moments, year-end-sales, festive month, year end parties, holiday moods, school holidays, barbeque and chalets, wedding invitations throughout the month. Its really a busy, busy month. Everyone is out to enjoy and have all kinds of activities plan.

I am invited to a friend chalet with barbeque over at Changi. The chalet is going to be 3 days 2 nights event during the weekends, middle of december. As usual, we will be coming with empty stomach to fill and mingle around the crowd, some might stay overnight. The funny part is, everyone that is coming over will have to pay $20...!!! Either you stay over or you just come for the day, better still drop by the chalet for merely a few hours and you have to pay such amount, that is crazy and it makes me feel like I am being rob in broad daylight. If the amount to be pay is within $10, I wouldn't brag about it, how expensive can it be to hold a chalet with barbeque..? And about 20-25 people are invited over, if 1 person pay $20, how much will it be for 20-25 people, wouldn't that total up to $500..?!? It has to be a joke, to hold a chalet with barbeque cost that much. It is as good as I pay about $20 plus for a meal over at seoul garden where they cater for buffet and we can eat as much as we want but it is worth it. This is a chalet for goodness sake, don't tel me the food is expensive but even so it will just cost within $50-$100. I guessed the $20 is for the food, inclusive of the chalet fee.

It makes me to think twice about coming over the chalet. For an example, when my own company is having a barbeque which also have to be paid for, I didn't attend. Even when the company was having their dinner 'n' dance event which was supposed to be sponsored by the company itself, have to pay $60-$70 to attend and it was held at budget hotel, not some high-class hotels or 3-star hotels.

So what make she thinks I want to come to the chalet, I guess I'll cook up some excuses..

A helping hand...

Today, hubby help me to organized and install programs in my lappy. As everyone know, I am too clever in using the lappy so to makes things a bit easy and functional in my capability, hubby actually guided me thru the certain programs that he install for me.. isn't that sweet of him, concerned about me having to struggle using the lappy so he make the system simple for me to use. I am really touched by his willingness and thoughtfulness, really appreciate his hard work and guidance.


Before we get down meddling with my lappy, we drop by downtown east, ehub for late lunch and early dinner over at Burger King. We had our usual favourite meal which was turkey bacon burger 1 set and whoomper burger 1 set, since in awhile hubby going to use all his energy and brainstorming, meddling with my lappy so he needs to fill up the tummy and generate the energy for later. After we had our meals, we head down to the nearby Pasir Ris Park, for some fresh air. We sat down by one of the barbeque pit no.16 and hubby starts his mission. Before long, someone came over to their booked pit that we sat at so we packed our things and make a move to somewhere near my area. I just sat around, writing down notes and watch hubby do his things in a way I learn how to operate the programs. It took him almost 4-5hrs to settle everything, he must have felt exhausted and hungry...ehehehee..cant denied that..so once everything has been put in an organized way, I browse the system and programs to familiarize the settings. Hubby then send me back and he continue his journey back home.

Now, I am meddling around with my lappy, trying out the new and much organized system. Its easy and simple to use, hopefully I wont be having any problems using it, I guess it have to be trial n error.

Once again, I am thanking my sweet hubby for his help, really appreciate all the hard work and effort from him. Thank you soooo much...!!!

Fishing over at Pasir Ris Fish Pond

Weekend is here again and hubby is out fishing with his brother, Abang Jenal and nephew, Daniel over at Pasir Ris fish pond. Since I finished work early, i dropped by to see the boys fishing. While on the way there, I stopped by 'Old Chang Kee', buying hubby his favourite yam cake to fill up his tummy.

When i reached there, mother and adeq, Farhan was around. We sat around, chatting and sharing about the day. That's when hubby's line got bite. The fish was big, the first catch  for the day. I took some pictures to share with all but the picture is a bit dark due to bad lighting, enjoy the short slide show...

My brother, Is even drop by the pond. I spend quite some time accompanying my hubby till about 1115pm and later walk back home. If i am not working the next day, i would have accompany him throughout the night. Its been awhile too that we go prawning at the pond. We used to go prawning there for about 2-3 hours and caught about 1.5-2kg of prawns. The size of the prawns are quite big and some do comes with claws. Mother would then cooked 'sambal udang'. I really miss mother's cooking especially 'ayam masak merah'. Maybe one of this days, i and hubby can plan to go prawning, well that is going to be another story.

P.S Insya'allah..rezki murah, dapatlah you 2-3ekor ikan lagi. Dapa tlah masak ikan sweet 'n' sour or 3 rasa..eheheeheee..

Today, I took time off from work to meet my hubby and make the trip down to Parkway Parade. Since that day my hubby mention he wanted to look for his lappy accessories at Popular and along the way I look for my 'mouse'. We looked around for my 'mouse' and nothing seems to catch my eye but hubby manage to get his thing which is a multi-purpose hub for his lappy. Then we wandered off to Parkway Parade, in searched for my 'mouse' at Giant, Harvey Norman and Best Denki, none seems to suit my budget and catches my eye. Eventually, we went to this shop whereby they sell certain computers accessories and finally bought myself a wireless mini navigator which was within my budget. Aside from that, we bought ourselves each this 'Heartswarmers' keepsakes card with special messages. Its really sweet to owned this keepsakes cards with special messages in a way when I misses him, I can just take the cards out and read the written message which draw a smile on my face. I even get myself a free mug plus soft toy in it from Giant, after I have completed to collect 16stamps. Its a mug with either cats or dogs design in calboration with SPCA. My mug plus soft toy represents a Persian cat. 

Before we head home, we had our supper at KFC, since it was 9plus there wasn't much crowd queuing up. We queue patiently, waiting to be serve. There was 3counters and only 2 are opened, after awhile we waited, the staff from other counter call upon us for our order which the staff has already closed his/her counter for the day so we proceed as usual hubby make the order. While hubby was making his order, the staff cut his conversation without hearing out his complete order when he actually he was making it easier for the staff taking the order without having to ask us for any particular order which pissed him off. Hubby simply turn to me and say "I hate the attitude" instantly the staff serving us, feel the pinch and talk to us gently and the next few minutes everything was perfectly say and done by the staff, maybe the staff was afraid that hubby might want to lodge a complain with the manager. Later, hubby told me that the staff have closed his/her counter and preparing to clean up the workplace when the manager told him/her off that he/she should serve us first before starting to clean the place up since there is still customers waiting on line which the staff wasn't happy about.

Let us think thru about our service industry and the frontliners, have they really boost up the service rate and is this the way its going to be for the next years down the road. How will the community and tourists/foreigners rate our service if this kind of service and attitude keeps on-going. I suggest that everyone that works in the service line should attend courses and have proper trainings since the government also emphasize on good service.

Debate/Voice Up

Why cant some people understand a person difficulties, just because they are super good in certain areas that doesn't give them the right to judge everyone is as good as them or a fast learner, each individual have their different difficulties.

Thru the years, new things developed and we pick up the skills from scratch. It takes time to understand and master the new skills that has been brought to us with frequent usage and hands-on. Some people are just too slow in catching up and they are not being exposed to certain things around them. As times passed, the technologies/functions gets better and better thus making it harder for some to catch up.

Its easy for some to say, try to be in that person shoes. Yes, books and online 'Help' has been published to assist some in difficulties but how in a way this individual can understand when he/she hardly understand the terms. How can one grow to succeed without moral support and guidelines? Yes, it takes trial and error, they still need pointers which will then generate in their brain system and input in daily usage.

This debate/voice up is done.




 

Typical Singaporean VS Kiasu Singaporean

I was on the way to work today, as usual i took the train and alight at Tanah Merah station. Its a Sunday and you can imagine how crowded the train is and each stop that the train make, passengers kept coming in and out. As i was getting ready to alight at my stop, the crowd was pushing their way in without giving a thought about the other passengers that is alighting. Its so frustrating having to push my way out too or better still get pushed by others. Iv to voice out, raising my voice..."Excuse me..! can u all please make some way for other people to alight first...!!!!" and stomp my way out.. How do we educate this kind of people, even posters and advertisements has been put up but still the message is not reached and understand to the 'non-speaking English'. This are just the Typical Singaporeans living today.

Since my daily routine at work is meeting people from all walk of life, I get to experience all kinds of characters and attitudes. In particular, aunties,uncles and the old folks of the Nongsapura, Batam trip crowded the turnstil before boarding their ferry even before the ferry arrive. In a way blocking other passengers to board.  Signs have been put up and verbally been informed but still we are being ignored, reason is they want to board first, get the good seat (Fong Shui) and alight first, good luck for their gambling game. We label them Kiasu Singaporeans.

Who do you vote for being the good examples of Singaporeans today? Both groups are just the typical Singaporeans living in our daily lives. Its the trademark of Singaporeans, bringing this characteristics everywhere and anywhere they go so be mindful about everything you do, have some thoughts for others.

Holidays around the corner

It's been a tiring week for me to be working in the morning shift. Furthermore, its the school holidays, families and tourists travel around the globe. Imagine the crowd double up during the festive period and public holidays. Everywhere you go is crowded, .e.g the malls, cinemas, beaches, trains etc.Hmmphh....holidays is here, how nice it would be to be able to enjoy the holiday mood and have a plan to spend the holidays. How nice it would be, to spend the day out at the beach or picnic maybe barbecue.

I am looking forward to spend the days on some quality times with my beloved hubby, doing the things we shared and likes. After a long tiring day at work, it would be really, really nice to be in my hubby cuddles able to relax the nerves that has been working all day. Being close, wrap in his warmth cuddles is just as good as having a massage....MMmmmmm....nice...

P.S how about a good 'wrap up' this days...ehehehee...

A visit to SGH

Dear Diary,

It's Hari Raya Adha today which mark the new year in Islam calendar. Everyone is celebrating this festive season happily with their respective families while here i am at SGH visiting my beloved aunty, bik Nora, who is in ICU. Her condition is still critical and unstable. Its been 2 weeks and still no improvement in her health. It sadden me to see her in such state, feeling her pain and dilemma fighting her life thru this critical moment by herself. She's clinging on to a supportive equipment which help thru her breathing process.

Families and friends have come and go every single day by her ward, in hoping for a miracle and blessing from above, praying everyday by her side reciting 'surah yasin' that she'll pull thru this hurdles in life. Just last year, iv lost my beloved uncle and the thought of losing another beloved family members is just so near yet far. She've been in operations but none was successful and at times the feeling of losing hope could be felt by all though we leave it to fate and the almighty.

Like the saying.."ajal dan maut di tangan tuhan"... in god's will, whatever that comes thru this path, we take it with an open strong heart.

Bird'ae Celebration

Struck at midnight, there was i... being by your side, able to see it in your eyes, another day of the year that your born... No special surprises, no special gimmicks, no special parties just a special and sincere moments in time...  Thank-you for believing in me and us... I hope your wishes and dreams will come thru and fullfill, best of health, shower with love all around, good and stable income and last but not least conquering all the happiness that life can offer... Its sure a promising new year and month for u, lead me on, hand in hand thru our journey of life...

Just like any other day, its here again like any other year, your getting a year older in life... Making the mark of your 'manly year'... 

"Happy 28th Bird'ae, to my chubby cuddly hubby... Faizal Razali. "

p.s. FUJI MARU
Thank-you for the cruise to nowhere...